hey y'all..
countin' 8 dayz to Hari Raya..
can't wait for da day to come..
i was told dat i was born on da
nite of hari raya..(flash back)->
when my mum was bz preparing
food for ppl who break fast, im
also bz wanna come out to celebrate
hari raya..haha! didn't wanna miss
it! n so i was named nurfitri..<--
(history)-> it wasn't my mum
who look afta me eversince i was
born, at 1st she didn't want me..
but somebody does..datz da 1
who look afta me n da 1 who gave
my name..(touching isn't?)
eventhough i stay wit my own
mum now, i will never ever
forget her..datz my ibu..<--
back to my story......
i feel like fasting dayz passes
very fast..these dayz been bz
doin' kuihz..bakin..not all done
yet..i'ma continue 2morrow..
itz been kinda not so good day
today..as somethin' happen
to me n my guy..i dunno wat la..
i juz dun like it to talk about
money thing..whether we haf it
or dun haf it, sometimes it doesn't
makes us happy..i believe in fate
coz no matter how rich u can be,
doesn't mean u're rich wit happiness
too..im thankful with wat i haf..but dat
doesn't mean i can stop frm upgrading
myself..i wanted to..but i haf my planz..
it takes time..but as for my bf, maybe he
thinks differently..wat dat he wants, he
makes it to happen as quickly as possible
whenever he has da power in it..as in
money la..hard for me to explain, y'all
won't understand..i guess i've been
thinkin' so much bout spending on my
family, my home tiz raya..Frankly,
i dun like it when ppl starts to borrow
money..even if u say u gonna pay back..
i juz simply dun like it..maybe once in a
while, itz still ok to me..when u're really
in need..but if everytime, itz too much!
lemme ask u, how do u feel if ppl keep
on repeating things which u dun like..?
okay..im not tryna be perfect..even i haf
my own hard upz at times..datz where i
got no1 to help..i learned from my mistakes..
tryna get up whenever i fall..never haf i ask
him to pick me up..but he choose to..datz
where i think his way is different..n we can't
work on it dat well..me n my own wayz of not
troubling ppl..as for him, he likes to make
things difficult for himself..tried to help him
out..but he wouldn't wanna listen..
n never learned from his lesson
of wat he ever experienced.
wat can i do? i dun want him to rely on me
alwayz..i dun want him to feel like im stingy..
(eh! im not, ok..hehe..) of all, juz want him to
noe dat i dun like to talk about money..
im tired of it..pls understand.
it feels like da world is leanin' on me..
~Sing for da moment...~
