Itz raining outside n yet my bf
doesn't noe dat i need him...
i hate myself so much for loving
him..y?? i thot my sat was good
earlier on...i passed my FTT today..
shared the happiness wit ferrinna
coz both of us passed surprisingly..
Alhamdullilah..! but i wish to go out
n celebrate..but then he spoil
it all...doesn't even ask about it..
since afternoon i've been waiting
on him..been playing games on my
iphone for hours!!! n watch some
old music videos..i happen to watch
da video by Alicia Keys song called
A Woman's Worth..out of sudden da
video kinda touches my heart..tears
falls down from my eyes..no i didn't
mean to cry or tryna be emotional..
somehow, maybe im already sad..
plus watching it, it says "u will lose
if u choose to refuse to put her 1st.."
ya..it really means a lot! won't get
sick of da song...im bored!! wanna
noe wat, i applied unpaid leave
yesterday..goin for interview..
but ended up to be not-so-good
day for me..but afta i end my FTT
today, i thot da day gonna be better
than yesterday..i guess it's still da
same..we're supposed to go out
today, n yet he acted like he dunno
anything..like to act stupid! he doesn't
haf any idea when he will end his
meeting wip his fren, n yet still got da
cheek to say gonna meet me later..
i said forget it..today plan was cancelled..
so let it be...no meets up or goin out..
im hungry..for not eating 7 hours..
i'm gonna eat..i won't starve myself
bcoz of waiting on him..itz not worth
it! hmph! im not in da mood already..
oh gosh! can u imagine how i hate him
so much??!! all i wanna say is thanks ar EH!
